Dax - I hate that i love you lyrics

I remember what you said 
that shit tore me to peices 
That I was something that you wanted 
but not really needed
I used pray for someone like you 
could of sworn I was dreaming
Then I woke up and I realized

You were one of those demons
Now I’m contemplating life 
and wondering whats ahead
If it’s without you 
I might choose to not live it instead
You gave me life 
and without you 
I f*cking feel like I’m dead
And as I’m writing this song 
I’m currently trapped in my head
And now it’s dead weight

Ya it hurts
I don’t understand why we just couldn’t work
Wish that we could speak 
but I can’t find words
You know that I’m hurt 
and you don’t care 
and that just makes it worse 
So when I see you smile 
I fill my cup and write another verse
battling myself and evil thoughts
tried to spend my life with you 
I didn’t know what it would cost
Should of never came to Cali 
never opened up my heart
wish I never found love 
cuz I never would of lost

This this everyday
Ask myself why didn’t she stay
Looking up to heaven 
asking God to take away this pain
I know that I love you and I know that you don’t feel the same 
and that’s what’s killing me inside 
and causing me to go insane
Said we’re too different
Told me we would never work
Always put me second 
I would sprint but couldn’t finish first 
Got to comfortable and let my guard down
When you realized I did 
you took my feelings 
and you threw em in the f*cking dirt
Matching tattoos 
I can’t believe that you convinced me
Now you’re gone 
and it’s the only thing 
that keeps you here with me
Ya hate but I love you, 
you left but still see me
If you needed it right now 
I’d still give you my kidney

I’m lost 
can’t wanna see another woman I’m blind, and if I do Gods gonna have to 
pry open my eyes 
You gon’ laugh and say I’m weak 
until you realize and find 
that sharing love is the meaning 
and whole purpose of life
And when you do and hear this song
You will cry and sing along 
and realize that 
you don’t wanna die old alone
And I’ll be here still writing on my phone
Isolated in home 
drunk half way gone screaming

I STILL LOVE YOU!
And wouldn’t put no one above you
Even though you f*cking lied 
something in me still trusts you
I would die for you kill for you 
end my whole career 
they could cut off both my arms
And I’d still find a way to hug you
I don’t mean to make this music 
but it’s something that I must do
f*ck YOU!
I MOTHERf*ckING HATE THAT I LOVE YOU
I only run to you cause I can’t run from you
You took my child away
He was my f*cking son too.
I hate that I love you
I hate that I love you